We Have No Choice

battymadness @ 2009-12-13T15:39:00

2009-12-13T20:39:25Z

all i want is someone to love me and protect me
what is so hard about this?

the story goes i fell down the stairs onto a pile of hangars while i was doing my laundry.
my arm is bruised and my finger might be broken
but thats my story and i'm sticking to it.

maybe its me
but i think alfredo is being selfish
maybe i'm being selfish and maybe my hopes are way too high
i blame the fanfics.

Dir En Grey 09

2009-11-15T16:31:51Z

AHHH IT WAS SOOO GOOD AND I'M SOOO HAPPY
and it only feels like i got into a little car accident this year!
YATTA!
So we got on the line at 6 and after an hour and a half or phone calls texting easedropping idiot faces laughing at people with handicaps and huddling for warmth we finally got in. my poor 1.5 liter bottle of water didnt make it in with us though.
i like the place. apparently it used to be a movie theather.
first band was so fucking boringggg. they played a 13 minutes song called viking funeral. and i have never heard a metal song that was that fucking slowwww.
they wasted half an hour of my life then it took another half an hour to set up.
and Sar bir came on and the fun times started. i got video on my phone this time so victory for meeee. in the encore they played the final and me and moki danced.
then we ran downstairs beat the crowd got DVDs and got to go to the empty bathroom
hopped on the line for signing, meet the bassist and one of the guitars (dont know the names not going to try) got out of there and got chocolate at 11
then had to wait for parent to pick us up
it was great and epic
and i cant wait to do it again.

and now onto lots of homework and mangas that i dont want to do
and then study for a calc midterm that i'm gonna fail.

battymadness @ 2009-11-09T17:46:00

2009-11-09T22:50:43Z

i'm making a bag!
its tifa on one side
and coral reef on the other

Dir en grey concert is friday
as soon as i charge my ipod they gonna be in my ears 24/7

and i hate kelly
no one wakes me up from a nap and escapes my wrath
NO ONE

YARGH!

2009-10-31T01:59:18Z

today was fun
it was short and simple
and my snickers were laced with CRACK
and i got my pirate on

and then
i crashed.

battymadness @ 2009-10-18T14:30:00

2009-10-18T18:35:21Z

kinda upset that i might not get an art show
because of the 120 people that were there are the 50 spots that are open
and 10 of those are showcases so they dont count
AP calc might kill my chances
and that little incident with alfredo and the truancy might be the nail in my coffin.
time will tell

i finsihed layton
but his furnature is fucking me over.
and i'm almost done with rythem heaven
and phoenix wrights are slowly being finished again
NOT TOUCHING KINGDOM HEARTS
it will burn.

oh yeah
and college.
*headdeask*

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PLAN A REUNION IN THESE CONDITIONS???

battymadness @ 2009-10-14T18:35:00

2009-10-14T22:39:04Z

DID WE NEED TO HAVE SCHOOL
NO.

on a side note
i love that fountain place
and cuddleing in the sun
BUT I DO NOT LOVE
the fucking circle.

battymadness @ 2009-10-13T16:18:00

2009-10-13T20:21:45Z

Why is it that i have so much shit to do???
like WHY cant somebody just come up with a list of scholarships for me fuck dammit
and end of the marking period doesnt have to be every class have a test day
come on you guys

but i'm excited for my museum report!
10 pages of loveeeeee
and also my english essay
that shall be done quick.

RANDOM THOUGHT
in greys anatomy meredith is all like
"in high school i was the girl with the angry pink hair"
and jevee wants to be a nurse
hawhaw
funny~

WOOO CHINATOWN

2009-10-06T23:05:44Z

this morning everyone was feeling badddddd
BUT AFTERSCHOOL

i had to go look for moms stupid ed hardy sunglasses
and me and sherita combed the whole pearl paint side of canal street
then we went to the other side of the street
and got dizzy and tripped out of our minds
and finally i was like hey look lets go in little chinatown the best place for gifts!
so we went
and that place looked like the fucking bahamas
and we found a guy
who shifty magiked sunglasses out from under a hat
and then i realized
Ed Hardy sunglasses are the new illegal shit.
so i bought that
and then we went to eat the usual
and on the way back we saw death the kid
so today
was a great fucking day

off to do calc.

GUESS WHATTTTT

2009-10-05T21:13:39Z

I GOT THE SOUL EATER ARTBOOK
THIS AWARD GOES TO AMY WHO SHOWED ME IT WAS THERE
AND MY TUMMY FOR WANTING ONIGIRI AND SEAWEEDSSSS
YAYYYYYYY

i'm gonna paint 3 and 4 running on a phonograph now.
YAYYYYYYYYYYY
and also

MY LOVE

TIM BURTON

2009-10-03T17:01:28Z

i've been using the superhappy soul alot
thats good <3

so the Tim Burton exhibit is coming to the MoMa
from Nov. 22 to April 26
its gonna be all over the place!
theres a film exhibit
and hes taking over Theater 1 Gallery
Theater 2 Gallery
Special Exhibitions Gallery, third floor
AND Museum Lobby

now the school needs to hurry up and give me those free MoMa passes.
I WANT

BUT WAIT THERES MORE!
using their utlra super powers
MoMa teen night will aid us in our quest
Nov. 20th from 4 to 8 their having a free open to all with high school IDs
PREVIEW
woot i'm going.
WOOT AND SHA LA

ARGH WHY DIDNT I DO THIS SOONER?

2009-10-03T16:07:13Z

finally started to read the soul eater manga.
i'm at chapter 11 and there are 65
*sob*
but i ran over this

SENDING GOOD WAVES FOR COLLEGE I SEE
oh spirit
i love you.

battymadness @ 2009-10-02T22:18:00

2009-10-03T02:21:59Z

got the new kingdom hearts
and i'm bored
fucking tutorial.

the game starts with video for like 5 minutes
and i was like
well this is gonna be gay
then i thought of all the akuroku spam that was gonna happen on deviantart
and i was happy i wasnt in that club
SHA LA!

I FINISHED LAYTONS PUPPY
i named him gar
now i shall look for beastboy pictures.
SHA LA AGAIN!

DIR EN GREY

2009-10-01T22:38:17Z

22.50 for friday
60 for all three
ohhhhh
which one will Karen doooooo?????

and also
hi my name is Karen
i'm a complusive writer.
and by complusive i mean only when sokoloff gives us something genius
"The stars longed to gnaw the sky into it's cataclysmic end where it would convulsivly rain down our long awaited inheritance and stop us in our tracks."
YAY

and isnt soul adorableeeee?
HES SO CUTEEEEEE

ANIMECON RECAP

2009-09-27T01:24:45Z

OMFG YAY

its a recap and its longggg
me and sherita are assholes. we know this because we were making fun of people all day.
Animecon was GREAT. the place was small compared to comiccon but thats super good for people with one day tickets. there wasnt really anything much to buy there though i got everything i wanted anyway.
we started off with a quick look around then headed over to artist alley where i oggled and spent most of my money. honestly i kept forgetting that i was a art major andi could do that shit but whateverrrrr i got cool things!
then i realized i got a picture of cloud and i picture of tifa.
and i figured out the obsession is starting to swallow me whole.
there was soooo much art thereeeeee
and later a crack adict karen in mcdonalds was like
one day i'm gonna have a booth there
and i'm gonna sell my shit
and people are gonna buy it
and i'm gonna be like
HAW HAW HAW
you bought my fucking shit.
*DIES LAUGHING*
we ran around staring at thing for a few hours
saw a soul eater chalk art in the works thats getting done tomorrow!
its gonna be soul scandalous
HAH I MADE A JOKE
went to funamation and saw a whole bunch of really good soul eater cosplay and got pictures of them. and also got pictures of the only decent cloud there.
then me and sherita crossed shit off our list and went to the soul eater panel.

THEY PLAYED THREE FUCKING EPISODES
THREE
and let me tell you IT WAS NOT BAD
the only real things i had a problem with was shinigami (or lord death but honestly the americans wouldnt have gotten shinigami so whatever) his voice wasnt loopy enough. Spirits voice wasnt brassy enough but he was good he got the MAKAAAAAA parts right. and then there was black star...
*sigh*
why must all hyper ninjas get played by a lady who has to sound like a lady? he needs more balls in his voice for reals.
and soul! souls voice irked me in the beginning but it grew on me. and the guy who plays him is a total nerd and you know me and nerds *rolls eyes*
soul eater #1 is coming out next month
and the super cute soul eater cosplayers scored it for free and early
the rest of us got patches WHICH I WILL CHERISH FOREVERRRRR.
and there was a patti with a giraffe!
and sherita like soul eater now
ALRIGHT

we super shopped today
hunts for tshirts and books and gifts
and SO MUCH FUNNY SHIT
like sakura being a whore with naruto sasuke and ino.
and bad cosplayers
AND A GIANT FUCKING BUMBLEBEE IS MY LOVER
ahhhh
today was great.

a got an advent children cloud dolly for my collection
he's sitting right here on my desk now.
ahhhhh
and sherita is my best friend plank fo reals.
i'm sorry about the 6 cents.
you know you still love meeeeee
*crack face*

battymadness @ 2009-09-25T19:26:00

2009-09-25T23:30:20Z

today was going FINE
FINE GOD FUCKING DAMMIT
and then i come home and what?
VERBAL FUCKING ABUSE

YES i'm applying to art school
BUT DO THE NAMES HUNTER NYU AND CORNELL MEAN ANYTHING
YOU SON OF A BITCH
I HAVENT EVEN BEEN HOME FOR FIVE MINUTES AND ALREADY THIS SHIT?

and no i didnt go to the SUNY fair
because SOMEONE had to make sure that their parents didnt play the divorce game
and fuck around with how was going to take care of minni while other people were out at fucking U2 concerts.

TOMORROW NEED TO HURRY UP AND GET HERE
and he needs to leave so i can steal cash from his wallet.
20 for every fucking time i want to cut up my arms.
lets go.

battymadness @ 2009-09-23T18:07:00

2009-09-23T22:13:04Z

i might go to cornell and get a dual degree
how funnnn

EVERYTHINGS READY FOR SARURDAY
alrightttt~

battymadness @ 2009-09-22T18:19:00

2009-09-22T22:22:12Z

going with sherita to animecon!
after three weeks of denying it
THREE WEEKS
sherita was like you wanna go?
and i was like YES
and i wanna see soul eater and shop
woo

busy week
trying to sell a camera but i need the camera
wtf karen
stop being stupid

and calc is gonna eat me
should have dropped it while i had the chance

AND OMFG PAINTER
I LOVE JOYCE

battymadness @ 2009-09-17T16:54:00

2009-09-17T20:57:06Z

woke up really really sick
headache noseache earache eyeache throatache
and dizzyness fo realz

spent the day downloading games i cant put on my R4
talking to moki about how damn unfortunate we were
watching ponyo
and coughing

god is picking us off one by one you guys
jelly with her foot
and me and moki with the deathsick
i hope sherita doesnt get hit by a truck.

battymadness @ 2009-09-16T19:12:00

2009-09-16T23:16:11Z

pulver said nothing sexual in art history today
it made me sad

took my silly picture today
i think i'm gonna redo it
my eyes look like avacados and my hairs curl fell out

me and sherita took a magical journey to chinatown because our tummies were hungry
then it was a bag hunt
and my ass knocked over these bags
and then revealed my NEW SUPER SPECIAL AWESOME BAG
its final fantasy 7
Soul eater is slowly taking over elizabeth center
we saw cute clocks!

then we went to anime guy
and got ponyo for $10 and died

and i also said kelly was gonna die in a motorcycle accident
i love the girl
but thats how its gonna go down

Taylurrrrrr

2009-09-15T21:06:31Z

"Well umm I think my overall thought process went something like: 'Wow, I can't believe I won. This is awesome. Don't trip and fall. I'm going to get to thank the fans, this is so cool. Oh! Kanye West is here. Cool haircut ... what are you doing there? And then, ouch, and then I guess I'm not going to get to thank the fans.'"

lmfao
i died.

tomorrow is pictures
i'm gonna wake up early and do my damn hair
*headdesk*

First Week

2009-09-11T21:21:45Z

three years of being treated like crap and staying until fucking 3:30 has paid off
schedule is fanfreakingtastic
i get out at 2:25
and i have junggy for sculpture.
only thing i would complain about is my lack of jelly in my day
but i'll probably have drive by hallway meetings with her

The art history textbook is wayyyyy too heavy for its own good
and atlantis doesnt look like atlantis

Today was the firs time i've seen my whole senior class (minus 50-100 people)
and theres a lot of us.
like ALOT.

four months of hard work and then i can relax
my hopes for this year?
to get out alive.

Back to school freakout

2009-09-07T14:00:14Z

seriously
its bad enough i'm getting random fevers IN THE SUMMER
and that i cant eat properly or hold anything down
BUT REALLY
does the freakout have to happen?
i'm gonna be busy
i know
but ahhhhhh the rest of my life is coming
then again thats nothing new.
argh problems
argh to college school grades SATS money and divorces
*sighs*

anyway
anyone wanna go see nine on 9-9-09?

yoink?

2009-09-06T13:58:01Z

Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone?
Alfredo
he helps me sleep

Do you get bored of girlfriend/boyfriends easily?
Nope

What was your worst subject in school?
science

What is the best eye color on a member of the opposite sex?
GOLD
fuck twilight
its a petty color dammit

Do you like your job?
when i had one
sure
it was easy

What are your initials?
KAM

Are you a good speller?
most of the time

What was the last movie you saw in theaters, was it good? Who did you go with?
probably harry potter
dad minni bigtoe and grayhair

How many and what kind of animals are in your house?
i've had a bird, some fish and my kitties are outside

Where did your last hug take place?
yesterday
my family <3

Do you shop at Abercrombie & Fitch?
nope
not my style yo.

How much money do you have on you right now?
whatever is on that card
and probably like three dollars

When is the last time you took a nap?
yesterday

What are you disappointed about right now?
school in two days?

Could you date someone taller than you?
please?

When was the last time something bothered you?
school is in two days
and why dont we have any breakfast here?

What is your current mood?
kinda iffed
might go draw and sink into depression
who knows

What song is stuck in your head right now?
Curus
as usual

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I doubt

Have you ever felt an earthquake?
PFT
when i walk its an earthquake
HAH

Do you believe in karma?
why not

Are you an organ donor?
dont know if my organs are good for doning
but when i turn 18 we'll see

Who is your best friend?
that grayhaired chap over there.
i loves my jossralph

Do you gossip?
PFT

Have you ever been stabbed in the back?
yeah.

How old are you?
17 joy
the wonders of youth

Ever seen the Saw movies?
nope

Favorite kind of flower?
tiger lily

What are you doing tonight?
trying to draw
i might go to cancer grandmas house

Do you keep a condom in your purse/wallet?
i should. to throw at people

Your parents tell you they're going to split up, how would you react?
That's great
dont fuck up my life
(they decided not to listen to my request. my life is pretty fucked right now)

The person you're in love with moves across the world, what do you do?
PFT
we would have to uncling him first

Best feature about the preferred sex?
the overall package
i dont nitpick

If you could change your eye color would you?
GOLD
FUCK TWILIGHT
ITS A PRETTY COLOR

What's your opinion on 'drunk dialing'?
PFT

Would you ever forgive someone if they cheated on you?
agh
i dont know
probably

Do you want someone you can't have?
i'm content

Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
yesssss
blackneck last night
that jerk

Do you miss anything or anyone?
Everyone
my friends
my family
not having to worry about college
freshman year when the school wasnt an ass
no fighting
all of that stuff

Who makes you laugh no matter what?
alfredo <3
grayhair
moki jelly seto

Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours?
Nope

Who was the last person you talked to?
mommy?

Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age?
no.do it. do it do it do it.
i just dont want to hear about it.

Will you get married?
one can hope

Do you lie about your age?
no
my face does that for me
seriously people
i'm not 25.
stop that

If you were to have sex right now, would you use a condom?
yes

When did you last cry?
probably recently

Do you think you were ever in love?
*rolls eyes*
you know the answer to this
i know the answer to this

Have you started a horrible rumor about somebody?
no
but i say it how it is
and that could be taken as a horrible rumor
who knows

Have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs?
PFT

Do you think your future will be a good one?
one can hope
but you wont know till you get there

Did you date anyone this past summer?
i think you mean
Did you date anyone for two years?
the answer is yes

Is there someone you want to fight?
nope
i'm good

What color shirt were you wearing when your last kiss took place?
ermmmmmm
no idea

Does anyone like you?
yessssssss
and he owes me an r4

What’s your middle name?
i'm a mermaid.

What were you doing an hour ago?
clicking around the computer

What does your last text message in your inbox say?
something funny from alfredo

Do you wear the seatbelt in the car?
not in my dads car

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
sober

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
alfredooooo
noone spontaniously called me

Where will you be in the next hour?
at home
doing nothing

Are you taller than your mom?
yes

Are you an emotional person?
PFT

Who did you last yell at?
...
i dont know

Are you confused?
yes

What are you listening to right now?
Jason Deruloooooo
that jerk

Do you crack your knuckles?
yes

What do you want?
top of this list?
lost weight

What is the background on your cell phone?
Rumor!

Describe your phone:
scratched to hell lemme tell ya

If you could trade lives with anyone, who would it be?
my struggles are my own
and they will make me who i am
so i'm content with me right now

Do you get everything you want?
PFT NO

Have you ever broken your nose?
my dad broke it for me

Has anyone ever spread a rumor about you?
hmmm
not that i know of

Do you have any trophies?
medals

Have you ever punched a hole in the wall?
sure

What’s on your wish list for birthday?
i'm thinking christmas right now
come back in 6 months

Do you think you are a good person?
I try to be
i fail sometimes

Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
nervous

You go into walmart and have $20 to spend, what do you buy?
minni would steal it to buy fabric to make stupid pillows
I HATE HER PILLOWS

You're sitting at home bored, who do you call?
text grayhair or alfredo

What are you excited about?
seeing everyone

What woke you up this morning?
mom.
that jerk

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
not yet?

What are you doing tomorrow?
PFT
fuck if i know

Do you lecture people about drugs?
nope

Do you delete people off of myspace?
havent been on that in a while

When was the last time you saw your father?
hes right over there

Do you want to be in a relationship?
its nice
to have someone positive 24/7

Did you do something you kind of regret this week?
not really.

well that was fun

battymadness @ 2009-09-06T09:14:00

2009-09-06T13:16:05Z

two more days left
time to soak up the sun
and get everything clean
and finally see my friends again!

also senior year = FML
school portraits sending me mail?
COME ON

Before i go

2009-08-31T14:19:50Z

From November 22, 2009 through April 26, 2010, Burton will have a retrospective at the MoMA in New York with over 700 "drawings, paintings, photographs, storyboards, moving-image works, puppets, maquettes, costumes, and cinematic ephemera," including many from the filmmaker's personal collection